3rd years ago, I'll always sad on my birthday. I don't know what happen in my birthday. In the middle of night, I woke up. Saw my window in front of me. and I move to took the candle light. I bought it when I went to Bali. with deep I saw candle light. always. in my birthday
2008
someday, for the first time, I liked someone. he's older than me. at the moment, he's school at SHS. and I school at JHS. trustly, I was very very wrong that I liked him. because he had a girlfriend. while he had it, but I do not to think to destroyed his relationship. I stiil to keep. until I had a problem with him. I asked to him "why you left me suddenly? I had something wrong with you and ur gf? what?"
and he said "nothing. you're my best little 'sister' that I have. you.re so adult. and always think about present. thanks I met you may," response him to me at the momment.
and.....
he leave me after he said it to me :(
I thought that he still remember my birthday. because he's my best 'brother' and someday he said to me
"I'll be first human to say happy birthday to you! I promise"
but in my birthday, he not sent anything to me. I woke up in middlie of night. I was cry, I took my candle light, lighting candle in my bed room. then I pray to God
"God, why he not sent anything to me? just to said happy birthday?! God, saw my handphone. he's sent anything! he's gave me a lie! what can I do now?" and I said again,"God, gave me beloved have a kind, always love me forever :("
next, I blow the light. and I asleep
2009
okey, God heard my pray. God gave me bf. he's very well, very kind, very cool. but, in my birthday. he.s not gave me gift or greeting about my birthday. because, me and my bf had a problem. very2 big problem. and soon I must to studied to final exam or nasional exam jhs for my graduation. very2 big problem. honestly, I was stress to complete my problem. I took my candle light and pray to God, "God, what can I do for my problem? I will give up, God"
and my pray was granted.
2010
in the same at my birthday. my bf just gave me radio doraemon. it's okay, but I want to recvied his felt about my birthday, but his didnt to do that. hoam --"
one more, I saw my candle light. then I tight hug my candle light.one more again, I saw w/ deep my candle light. when I get a problem in my birthday. I will to see my candle light.certainly
what can I do next year? will I have a same moment in my birthday??
